Soooooo … where do I even begin?

How about a list?  Everyone loves lists. 🙂

1)  I am FINALLY inked up!  Yes, that’s right, I finally got my tattoo.  It’s a phrase that runs along the top of my shoulder.  I would share the phrase and post a pic, but since it’s something I came up with myself and uniquely my own, it compromises my anonymity and such.  But if you ask nicely (and privately), I’d be willing to share.  I am totally in love with it.  Seriously, it’s everything I hoped it would be.  And, it didn’t hurt…much!  Haha.  But I’m just glad since that’s another thing that I can cross off from My List.

2) I am semi, sorta, maybe dating someone?  Do I sound confused?  It’s because I am.  I just want to do the damn fckn thing already!  But, alas, it’s not to happen.  And his text-flirting game is, at best, a D-.  Yeah.  Oh, and, he doesn’t have a scent.  But this is not the guy I mentioned I was crushing on before. Totally new guy.  Totally cute story behind how we met.  Now if only we can have a totally cute way of continuing on having fun.  But damn!  It’s hard work with him.  And I just don’t feel like having to work for anything right now.  I want fun.  I want easy.  I want…flirty sexy fun!

3) OK, so I wrote that up there a while ago.  That has maybe fizzled out.  Again, I’m not entirely sure since he’s not consistently communicative.  As in, a few days/weeks will go by and I’m thinking okay, guess that’s over and done.  And then, bam!  There he goes with his D- flirting.  But flirting nonetheless.  I decided, however, that I am going to stop trying with him.  I think I was so eager to have a fling that I was losing sight of my objective.  To have fun.  Which leads me to…

4)  Fun!  I’ve been hanging out a lot with new people.  (Another thing I can semi cross off My List!)  I’ve always been open to trying and doing new things.  But now, I’m also more open to hanging out with new people.  And I’m definitely thankful that I’ve met such amazing people.  I’ve also noticed that I’m more confident in approaching people.  What they say is true, confidence is attractive.  To everyone.

5)  I still miss the ex.  I still think about him.  I still sometimes wish I was with him.  I still sometimes get so fucking angry about it all.  But I’ve noticed that the feelings come less often, and less intensely.  I’m not religious and I’m not trying to push anything on anyone, but I’ve been praying about it.  And I definitely think it’s helped.  A LOT.  I feel like through asking Him for some help, I’m learning to let go.  I’m starting to forgive.  I’m starting to have the strength to move on.  And also, there’s probably some divine intervention going on.  Whatever the case, I’m just glad.  Because it’s exhausting holding on to everything.

And I think that’s it for now.  I hope everyone else is feeling as blessed and…satisfied as I am.